I WILL MISS YOU...

 Departing is an integral part of what we call "social life". Once a snr said to me,"BITSians are the once who feel most college sick".Certainly so.Life here has a new dimension added here. Being disadvantaged at being isolated ,BITS is advantaged to evolve in such distinguished social life. Many joint families live here, some always headed by "MATAS" :P

 Eyeing the farewell in my first year was only about eating at dinner parties and getting photographs clicked. This time it marked a difference.

I felt I got a bit of *emotional immunity* after all the "emotional atyaachars" diff. girls had done to me. But it was a very strange moment for me, during this semester's farewell, when i felt touched by realizing the fact that I will 'probably' see them again.( The *In-Depth Analysis* of how I feel is quoted at the end, so wont bother making u read same thing now :P )
The campus will seem changed when I go back again. As more semesters will pass, I will bid good bye to all my snrs till i myself will be expecting a "perfect" farewell.

I dedicate this article to all the snrs I have known and thank them for knowing me. I have discovered great friends in u. Hope I didn't troubled u a lot  :P .
I thank you "Sweta, Mansi, Arpit, Snehil, Ankita, Abhilasha, Jaikant, Raghav, Rashik" (frndz and bhaiyaas ;D ) .

Life doesn't stops but only takes a new start(but blog articles do :P), here I end by quoting a very special poem composed by a very sincere junior Sonal for our club seniors...

Chalte Chalte

Yaad rahega
T lawns par baithkar chatar-patar karna
har moments par yun hi pics lena

Oasis par aapke saath dance karna

Yaad Rahega
Ankita ka kamar par haath rakhkar kaam karwana
Abhilasha ke charts

Sweta ka chalo chalo kehna

Snehil ki khamoshi
Mango ki cheekh
karenge hum aapke bina banut lonely feel

dua hai hamari ki khushiyon ke saath rehna

jahan bhi jaao har taraf phod daalna
safalta ki uchaaiyon ko choote rehna
agle oasis par aane ki koshish karna
taaki hum aapke saath yaadein taza kar sake

All the memories of those days flashing in our mind
Our eyes go gloomy,Our heart filled with emotions
As we realize that its time to Bid Adieu ...........

P.S. a) I wish we meet again. :)
       b) The list will be updated each sem. :D So if u going to receive ur farewell soon, this one is for u too :)
       c) I hope Sonal doesn't files a case against me. :P

And the LoSeR wakes up *AGAIN* !!! :(

Dad said "Make a decision.. If u decide to go, then don't ever think to come back, Coz if u do, not u but we will loose our respect in society".. I said "Yes, What ever may be the circumstances , I wont."

26 June '08
The milestone read 1.5 km ..I was sitting on the window seat and my mom next to me. Shortly it read 500 m. It caused a fear in my mind. *A hammer on my inner self* All the time I thought I was stuck. "What if I couldn't !! There is no way out now." When we finally reached, an old mate, Raghav, said "Dude, the place is really bad. Go back i say!" *A hammer on my confidence*. We sat down for registration. Meanwhile, all parents were taken for "NDA DARSHAN". A senior saw my board mark sheet, and said, "wtf man, why did u come here? U will die here" *A hammer on my determination*
Mom n Dad both then left the same evening for Delhi, crying . Dad's hug that day still keeps me warm.


2 Days later
I was ill. But still had to run.
Later...
The food, I felt, was pathetic. Everything seemed to be over. Tora an army kid and my friend kept pushing me, but it helped little. I kept talking to Udit bhaiya, a 6th termer there, (who is now probably Lt. Udit Gupta) but still I felt I was loosing myself to the hard conditions.

2nd July '08
I was talking to dad on phone, He said,"What is it?". I murmured "Mann nai lag raha". He at once said " No problem, u come back." Neglecting a statement he made earlier.
I had *RESIGNED* and was in Delhi five days later.
Then I came to BITS.
Initially I thought that I shouldn't have quit, everyone faces problems in the beginning. But as I got more and more T|A|S|T|E of the BITSian life, I slowing started forgetting NDA. Memories flashed occasionally when any of my friend asked about it. And then the loser in me wakes up, 'while im asleep'. Twice I had a *DREAM* or rather 'nightmare' that regretting my decision to quit, I gave the tests again and was reselected in NDA. But this time again the loser decides to quit and comes back!!! :( ... In total ** I quited THREE TIMES**
The other day, the loser again makes one night a nightmare. This time it was that I was quitting from BITS ..............!!! The count is then FOUR till now!! And seriously loosing again and again to the same circumstances, is the worst thing that can happen..! God..
I don't know how can I overcome this fear and beat the loser. Maybe it will stay and torment me for the rest of my life. Because I have been defeated in reality, so maybe I will always be on the loosing end "In Dreams"!!
P.S.1. I hope "if the loser has to survive, it survives only in dreams"... only. in. dreams! I can beat it that way!
2. But ya I know if i have it  in me to get selected then i have it in me to beat the loser as well. :D 
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Who am I?

I am your constant companion. I am your greatest helper or heaviest burden. I will push you onward or drag you down to failure.
I am completely at your command. Half the things you do you might just as well turn over to me and i will be able to do them quickly and correctly.


I am easily managed - you must merely be firm with me. Show me exactly how you want something done and after a few lessons I will do it automatically. `
I am the servant of all great individuals and, alas, of all failures, as well. Those who are great, I have made great. Those who are failures, I have made failures.


I am not a machine, though i work with all the precision of a machine plus the intelligence of a human. You may run me for profit or run me for ruin- it makes no difference to me.


Take me, train me, be firm with me, and i will place the world at your feet. Be easy with me and I will destroy you.


WHO I AM?




                             I AM 'HABIT'


P.S. An extract from a book :) .. n thanku if u assumed i wrote it :P 

T|A|S|T|E ... the promo.

Its the immortal memory of my life . The story is almost 1 year old now.. I always wanted to share this with all my frnds, tough many already know it.. Sometimes they get to kno or if someone is unlikely to kno then i tell him myself :P .. Coz i feel its an achievement which i will always feel proud about. Yes , im talking about my selection in the National Defense Academy (NDA).

Now in the series which i call TASTE (because its a taste of life which only a very few ppl get a chance to enjoy, n im the lucky one here. ) , I will write " the inside story " of all the happenings during my odyssey. Mind u guys , this is gonna be an uncensored version .. so dont create a "unfair" image of mine if i use some ( or many :P ) "REALISTIC" words.. !

Not many ppl might me interested in reading this , but i hope i find a few religious visitors to this page and I wish they enjoy and 'feel' the essence of it too...


Thank You
CADET A. AGGARWAL

P.S. We will be taking off shortly. :)

Wait is over.. !
The story starts :D
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http://rodofwisdom-cadetaggarwal.blogspot.com/

Enough talk, Lets fight.!

Its not talk exactly but simply a waste of time.. Introduction to t20 just fancies its viewers but can never replace the real cricket. The News channels call it " FATAAFAT cricket" !

Commercially its been a big hit so not many people would agree with me. Introduced in june 2003 amongst UK county teams , the game picked up fast and turned into a billion dollar baby in no time. Girls and women too watch this form of cricket. With india out of T20 world cup 09 already there is nothing much left to watch. The matches have started to bore opposite of what they were meant to be. Much credit goes to IPL and ICL . Big money and names are involved in IPL so its the favourite. Mukesh Ambani and Vijay Mallaya got their teams in IPL , i m not sure if they could tell a signal for a dead ball or a no ball infact before IPL.. and why they got this, definitely money.. it ain't any cricket love. :P
Once my cousin prompted during an IPL match " inn matches ka kuch faayda hai!!" .. i had to think but to say something i said" jo naye log khel rhe hain unke liye hai, they get a recognization" and i agree with this. But what else !! Though i enjoyed these matches in BITS. U have people supporting one or the other team. "To jiski team haare usko "kilsaa kilsaa" ke maar daalo :D ( akhil , no offence dude, par sachin ko aur responsibilty dikhani chahiye thi :P ) .

I remember 2003 worldcup. India lost . Even if india would have won, i wont have gained anything. But it felt bad! But if delhi wins or looses in IPL, i dont give it a *.( maintaining the decency ppl :P)! and i dont even no the names of teams in ICL!!

wikipedia search says :

(no cheating in my blog :D . i copied it so i said it. )
Although the format has proved successful, it has been argued that since Twenty20 encourages far-from-technical cricket; youngsters wanting to pick up the game will be misguided into believing that cricket is all about trying to hit 6s and 4s no matter how you do it. Also it may create the misconception that cricket is a batsman’s game and there is little incentive learning how to bowl since it is the bowlers that are usually at the receiving end, leading to fewer youngsters taking up bowling.

I AGREE.

Now in T20 u dont see class players in Indian side , so its no fun for me watching India aswell. If a game is delayed , then just a 6 overs per side game!! I mean is it a joke?? What do u get to see in a 6-6 overs match, the ticket buyers feel cheated. I feel its been tooooo much of T20 and its started on showing on everyone. Everyone needs a break, the players; spectators ; but not the 'sponsers' :P .

Test matches rock great time. U get 5 day non stop cricket . U get to see everything thats called cricket. 100-200 runs by a batsman . 5-10 wicket haul by a bolwer. ODI's also entertain and 'test' well.

Now with India-West Indies series coming up , i hope to see some cricket again. Certainly after very long time!!

P.S. > I wish MI performs well in IPL3 ;D
> RCB stunned evryone. So brijesh u will be treating us :D
> DD sucks hard! x-(
> Show me some CRICKET!!!!!! I need it!!

N.U.M.B.E.R.S

If u think not much to talk about "NUMBERS", maybe u evolve after this one.
When i start counting where do 'numbers' occur in my life i start with counting. :)

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 ** 12 13 14 ........ right then i received a blow on cheeks :( "11 kaun bolega" my mother would say. It went on for several times but i learnt not to skip it, maybe the eleventh time :P . Since then many sorts of 'numbers' entered my life. I was preity (hey abhitesh, hw r u doing? ;D) good with 'numbers' at school, but could never get the number "100" in any subject. Tough i stuck to "99" 2-3 times.

I had got a scooty number in 6th standard and then a bike number in 10th B-) . And 2 is the number when i met with accidents on them. :P
Just after 12th i was mounted by all important numbers for that phase of life. I was amongst the 11 (same old number :D ) of 90 who got selected in the M NDA 81245 SSB Batch. B-) .. Then there came numbers which included my ranks and score in diff exams .. I got into BITS with a number of 310 .

Today ppl swim deep in numbers .. U got to remember many telephone numbers, then birthdates which are quite imp. :) , then ur phone balance , then ur CGPA (i wish i could forget about this one :( ) , then price tags, number of girlfriends for some :D , time is constructed of numbers mind u, most imp. for placed are the bank a/c numbers :P and for ppl studying is the number they could fetch when they get a job.
The most imp. of all numbers for all categories is the number which the note u carry bears. All the rat race is to get the biggest number on urs. Thats where all the headache and pleasure comes from.

What if sometime u puzzled all the numbers?? . What if u forgot what numbers are u associated to?? . Feel the fear of some numbers erasing from your mind, thats what i want to say.. What difference could it make to your life.. Certainly u would realize their importance and 'how much there can be to talk about numbers'. :)

For everyone i wish they get all the numbers in life that statisfy them. :)

P.S. Just a stream of thoughts.. i think nothing much to comment on .!

"ARE *U* ALSO INFECTED"!!! :-O

I discovered a new disease recently. You can just find out if u suffer from it as well, but invent the cures by urself and put them in the comments for others to know. I realised that i suffered from it, and i coined a term for it "*GTALKARIA*". If u r a Bitsian brain then surely u have got an hint, if yes, 1st symptom. The mosquito flies on internet from 24 august 2005.. (just to show that i did a bit of research aswell. :P :D) and since then it has stung over 3 million users worldwide... hey, if u very well understood the meaning of those symbols (:P and :D) then i am afraid you show the 2nd symptom, but its just a minor one coz everyone uses these smileys these days.. :D .

If u try to make an "sm" out of everything that happens to you in a day, then u r seriously Effected!! Let me warn you , this is a communicable disease. Me and many more like me took it from other Bitsians. :( .
When u *sign in* , u always see a long list of online ppl but alas half of them love to "colour themselves red" . I dont understand, if u dont wish to chat or got some other imp. work, then why do sign in!!!

The worst symptom i suffer from is that what ever i do, think of, hear of, talk about, i think "hey, this can be a cool sm" ..
and so i keep changing my status msgs quite often like everyone else, just showing a hidden part of my creativity as well. :P . from movie songs to copied statements to cheated status msgs (burman u rock in this part, man!) and sometime original work aswell ;D
Anyways i wish if i m using it (or addicted to it) then it just helps in a way and so for others. :)
It keeps u connected to ur friends and family tough :)