I WILL MISS YOU...

 Departing is an integral part of what we call "social life". Once a snr said to me,"BITSians are the once who feel most college sick".Certainly so.Life here has a new dimension added here. Being disadvantaged at being isolated ,BITS is advantaged to evolve in such distinguished social life. Many joint families live here, some always headed by "MATAS" :P

 Eyeing the farewell in my first year was only about eating at dinner parties and getting photographs clicked. This time it marked a difference.

I felt I got a bit of *emotional immunity* after all the "emotional atyaachars" diff. girls had done to me. But it was a very strange moment for me, during this semester's farewell, when i felt touched by realizing the fact that I will 'probably' see them again.( The *In-Depth Analysis* of how I feel is quoted at the end, so wont bother making u read same thing now :P )
The campus will seem changed when I go back again. As more semesters will pass, I will bid good bye to all my snrs till i myself will be expecting a "perfect" farewell.

I dedicate this article to all the snrs I have known and thank them for knowing me. I have discovered great friends in u. Hope I didn't troubled u a lot  :P .
I thank you "Sweta, Mansi, Arpit, Snehil, Ankita, Abhilasha, Jaikant, Raghav, Rashik" (frndz and bhaiyaas ;D ) .

Life doesn't stops but only takes a new start(but blog articles do :P), here I end by quoting a very special poem composed by a very sincere junior Sonal for our club seniors...

Chalte Chalte

Yaad rahega
T lawns par baithkar chatar-patar karna
har moments par yun hi pics lena

Oasis par aapke saath dance karna

Yaad Rahega
Ankita ka kamar par haath rakhkar kaam karwana
Abhilasha ke charts

Sweta ka chalo chalo kehna

Snehil ki khamoshi
Mango ki cheekh
karenge hum aapke bina banut lonely feel

dua hai hamari ki khushiyon ke saath rehna

jahan bhi jaao har taraf phod daalna
safalta ki uchaaiyon ko choote rehna
agle oasis par aane ki koshish karna
taaki hum aapke saath yaadein taza kar sake

All the memories of those days flashing in our mind
Our eyes go gloomy,Our heart filled with emotions
As we realize that its time to Bid Adieu ...........

P.S. a) I wish we meet again. :)
       b) The list will be updated each sem. :D So if u going to receive ur farewell soon, this one is for u too :)
       c) I hope Sonal doesn't files a case against me. :P

And the LoSeR wakes up *AGAIN* !!! :(

Dad said "Make a decision.. If u decide to go, then don't ever think to come back, Coz if u do, not u but we will loose our respect in society".. I said "Yes, What ever may be the circumstances , I wont."

26 June '08
The milestone read 1.5 km ..I was sitting on the window seat and my mom next to me. Shortly it read 500 m. It caused a fear in my mind. *A hammer on my inner self* All the time I thought I was stuck. "What if I couldn't !! There is no way out now." When we finally reached, an old mate, Raghav, said "Dude, the place is really bad. Go back i say!" *A hammer on my confidence*. We sat down for registration. Meanwhile, all parents were taken for "NDA DARSHAN". A senior saw my board mark sheet, and said, "wtf man, why did u come here? U will die here" *A hammer on my determination*
Mom n Dad both then left the same evening for Delhi, crying . Dad's hug that day still keeps me warm.


2 Days later
I was ill. But still had to run.
Later...
The food, I felt, was pathetic. Everything seemed to be over. Tora an army kid and my friend kept pushing me, but it helped little. I kept talking to Udit bhaiya, a 6th termer there, (who is now probably Lt. Udit Gupta) but still I felt I was loosing myself to the hard conditions.

2nd July '08
I was talking to dad on phone, He said,"What is it?". I murmured "Mann nai lag raha". He at once said " No problem, u come back." Neglecting a statement he made earlier.
I had *RESIGNED* and was in Delhi five days later.
Then I came to BITS.
Initially I thought that I shouldn't have quit, everyone faces problems in the beginning. But as I got more and more T|A|S|T|E of the BITSian life, I slowing started forgetting NDA. Memories flashed occasionally when any of my friend asked about it. And then the loser in me wakes up, 'while im asleep'. Twice I had a *DREAM* or rather 'nightmare' that regretting my decision to quit, I gave the tests again and was reselected in NDA. But this time again the loser decides to quit and comes back!!! :( ... In total ** I quited THREE TIMES**
The other day, the loser again makes one night a nightmare. This time it was that I was quitting from BITS ..............!!! The count is then FOUR till now!! And seriously loosing again and again to the same circumstances, is the worst thing that can happen..! God..
I don't know how can I overcome this fear and beat the loser. Maybe it will stay and torment me for the rest of my life. Because I have been defeated in reality, so maybe I will always be on the loosing end "In Dreams"!!
P.S.1. I hope "if the loser has to survive, it survives only in dreams"... only. in. dreams! I can beat it that way!
2. But ya I know if i have it  in me to get selected then i have it in me to beat the loser as well. :D 
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Who am I?

I am your constant companion. I am your greatest helper or heaviest burden. I will push you onward or drag you down to failure.
I am completely at your command. Half the things you do you might just as well turn over to me and i will be able to do them quickly and correctly.


I am easily managed - you must merely be firm with me. Show me exactly how you want something done and after a few lessons I will do it automatically. `
I am the servant of all great individuals and, alas, of all failures, as well. Those who are great, I have made great. Those who are failures, I have made failures.


I am not a machine, though i work with all the precision of a machine plus the intelligence of a human. You may run me for profit or run me for ruin- it makes no difference to me.


Take me, train me, be firm with me, and i will place the world at your feet. Be easy with me and I will destroy you.


WHO I AM?




                             I AM 'HABIT'


P.S. An extract from a book :) .. n thanku if u assumed i wrote it :P 

T|A|S|T|E ... the promo.

Its the immortal memory of my life . The story is almost 1 year old now.. I always wanted to share this with all my frnds, tough many already know it.. Sometimes they get to kno or if someone is unlikely to kno then i tell him myself :P .. Coz i feel its an achievement which i will always feel proud about. Yes , im talking about my selection in the National Defense Academy (NDA).

Now in the series which i call TASTE (because its a taste of life which only a very few ppl get a chance to enjoy, n im the lucky one here. ) , I will write " the inside story " of all the happenings during my odyssey. Mind u guys , this is gonna be an uncensored version .. so dont create a "unfair" image of mine if i use some ( or many :P ) "REALISTIC" words.. !

Not many ppl might me interested in reading this , but i hope i find a few religious visitors to this page and I wish they enjoy and 'feel' the essence of it too...


Thank You
CADET A. AGGARWAL

P.S. We will be taking off shortly. :)

Wait is over.. !
The story starts :D
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